Making Peace with Your New Life….
One of my all time favorite songs is by the Talking Heads, This Must Be the Place. It cheers me up whenever I’ve lost complete hope in the day, the moment, humanity and/or all things challenging. I’ve loved the song for decades, but only recently have I realized how significant the lyrics have become to my life.
The first moments of my journey as a special needs parent were completely surreal. I continued to have outer body experiences, as if there was some sort of movie reel playing before me, one that I couldn’t stop, and found myself unwillingly staring in.
I am living a completely different version of the life that I thought that I would ever live, there are many parts of me that have been softened, worn down with wear, exhaustion and fatigue. Decades later, I’m still trying to find my proverbial footing, each day there’s a new challenge, but there’s also a new discovery, a new notion of bliss.
Tumbling through the years as if caught in a huge and unexpected wave, I’ve surfaced at times simply gasping for a breath of air. Other times, there’s a heavy and unexplained sense of balance and calm, a stripping away of all the unnecessary parts, a minimalist version of me-lighter, less angry, more accepting and hopeful for all that is yet to be.
“Feet on the ground, head in the sky
It’s okay, I know nothing’s wrong, nothing
Oh! I got plenty of time
Oh! You got light in your eyes
And you’re standing here beside me
I love the passing of time
Never for money, always for love.”
